Little Ms Chatterbox

Hi. My name is Nalina and I'm a talk-a-holic.

There, I've said it. No profound insight, no waves of shame, guilt, remorse or sudden urge to apologise. Nada. Zilch. Zip. Nyet.

I've been called a chatterbox (actually people seem to have forgotten that concise description) but there's bising, noisy, mulut murai, talk too much, talk too fast, talk too loud and a host of other names. In the beginning I think I was slightly bothered by it (I started very young so I can't really remember) but I've learnt to tune it out now, just like how some people tune me out (hey, all's fair and all that).

I used to think that the reason I just talk is because when I'm dead (and contrary to popular belief you don't just die of old age..you can drop dead anytime) that's it...nothing can be said anymore. I couldn't do it even if I wanted to. Then what happens of the things unsaid? So might as well get it all out now and have no regrets later. While some part of me still believes that to be true, I also now think I just like to talk, a lot, amongst other things. But talking does seem to be the most prominent character trait however. Oh I can listen as well as if not better than the next person, form intelligent judgements and reach wise and profound conclusions about life and all other matters but I can talk....a lot. So what?

I was about to say I'm sorry if people can't understand that but I'm not really, so why apologise. I like me, talking and all so why should I be sorry for it. As mentioned, I DO have other qualities but if people are sooooo focused on the talking and can't see the forest for the trees, how is that my problem.

So if anyone is expecting me to turn over a new leaf, be more 'mature' (another over-rated trait) and stop talking so much, I've got news jack, ain't gonna happen. EVEN facebook says so - I took the what am I born to do quiz and surprise, surprise it came out 'good talker'. See?

Oh I think once upon a time I might've considered cutting down etc..just to be 'liked' but I realised as I get older that I can stuff all that. The ONLY person that I need to be concerned with who likes me or not is ME! So I like me just fine (except for the weight issue but that's another story), in fact I LOVE me. All of me. The good, bad, the ugly, the funny, the serious, the thin, the fat...all of me I love. So put that in your pipe and smoke it! You always have the option of walking away people.

As for me, I'm having great fun being me so I don't foresee that changing anytime soon.